Stress is Good

Asalamu Alaikum,

Its be 2 1/2 days since my parents left for Hajj. I'm absolutely overwhelmed with work. I have to run through my arabic grammar notes, practice tajweeed ( which is sooooooo hard without sister Saira next to me.) and being a mommy of 2 kids, and house maintainer.

Its funny, because im absolutely exhausted by Ishaa, and I usually sleep right after, get up for Qiyam, sleep, and fajr. But these days, after all my work is done and my siblings are in bed, I log online and stay on. Its absurd, since I don't have time to go online as I need my sleep but there I am, talking to people I haven't too in ages.

In a way, its really good...because I haven't been in contact frequently with friends and relatives for a long while. I don't go on msn much anymore, or on forums, but its nice to know how everyones doing. On the other hand, Im half asleep while making lunch, studying, I forgot to put salt in the lasagna and everyone was like...blekh. :) I guess when my parents come back inshaAllah i'll go back into disappear mode, I get more done that way, and I need to stay spiritually stable.

My 3 year old cousin Yahya did the cutest thing. Well, its terrifying but if you see him you'll melt so anything he does is adorable. He walked out of his home, went down the street, crossed a main 3 lane street, entered the mall on the other end, walked around the shops until a man found him. The man than took him door too door in the surrounding neighborhood asking him "is this your home?" and he's very calm and telling him "No, not this one." eventually they found his home and he was returned safely to my terrified aunt.

It makes me see that kids are much more confident these days. In every aspect. My little sister is so bold and indenpendant. I didn't reach that level of confidence till very late. I suppose the times were in right now, we need tougher made people, not the soft, shaky type like me. hmm Allahu Alim.

I finished listening to Imam Anwar Awlaki's lectures on the Signs of Judegement, it was excellent. Im starting on the Stories of the Prophets, this evening inshaAllah. I just hope I can utilize the knowledge i've gained, as its serious business learning Ilm and not implementing it. May Allah(swt) grant us the taufeeq to do so.

Anyways, I need to start packing, as am spending the night at my aunts, in order to be there with them for Eid. It'll be super crazy, seeing she has the most hyper kids and next door to my uncle and his crazy kids, but mashaAllah I love them all.

Alright, back to my action packed life...woohoo.

Fi AmanAllah