Bye Bye to Another Desire
Asalamu Alaikum,
I’ve stopped becoming surprised at my fate. SuhbhanAllah. :)
Here I was, ready for my interview with the International Islamic University of Islamabad, ready for 3 years of intensive deen study, ready to pursue what I’ve been dreaming about for 4 years…and Allah(swt) again…had something different planned for me.
It is said when the very FIRST wave of grief strikes you is when you should say Innil Ilahi wa Innil ilayhi rajioon. It is that first blow that shakes your very core that has the most immense ajjar for resisting and remembering the Most High.
I’ve found that I have many likes and desires, but it is only what I desire with all my heart and soul that is always always taken away from me. What I struggle for the most, is what is conveniently slipped out of my reach. And everytime it involved obeying my parents over obeying my desire. :)
Life is just one test after another, and what is a test if were not tested with things that would truly make us struggle? That would cloud our reasoning with emotions and sorrow? I thought since I was pursuing deen that nothing could stop me as long as I kept making dua and working hard. Truly Allah(swt) tests to separate the true from the false.
Khair, Sabr is most befitting for me on top of everything else. I pray that Allah(swt) gives me what is best for me and helps me become pure enough to pursue attainment of Ilm.
Word of Advice: Be careful of what you desire, no matter how pure of a desire it may be. This dunya is a trial in which all your desires are lined up and knocked over, one by one until you despair from Allah(swt) Mercy, or raise yourself above them and look towards Allah(swt) to decide your desires.
“And you cannot escape in the earth or in the heaven (from Allah). And besides Allah you have neither any Protector nor any Helper.” ( 29.22)
“So whatever you have been given is but (a passing) enjoyment for this worldly life, but that which is with Allah (Paradise) is better and more lasting for those who believe and put their trust in their Lord (concerning all of their affairs).
May Allah(swt) grant us the ability to submit to His Will completely. (42.36)
Fi AmanAllah
I’ve stopped becoming surprised at my fate. SuhbhanAllah. :)
Here I was, ready for my interview with the International Islamic University of Islamabad, ready for 3 years of intensive deen study, ready to pursue what I’ve been dreaming about for 4 years…and Allah(swt) again…had something different planned for me.
It is said when the very FIRST wave of grief strikes you is when you should say Innil Ilahi wa Innil ilayhi rajioon. It is that first blow that shakes your very core that has the most immense ajjar for resisting and remembering the Most High.
I’ve found that I have many likes and desires, but it is only what I desire with all my heart and soul that is always always taken away from me. What I struggle for the most, is what is conveniently slipped out of my reach. And everytime it involved obeying my parents over obeying my desire. :)
Life is just one test after another, and what is a test if were not tested with things that would truly make us struggle? That would cloud our reasoning with emotions and sorrow? I thought since I was pursuing deen that nothing could stop me as long as I kept making dua and working hard. Truly Allah(swt) tests to separate the true from the false.
Khair, Sabr is most befitting for me on top of everything else. I pray that Allah(swt) gives me what is best for me and helps me become pure enough to pursue attainment of Ilm.
Word of Advice: Be careful of what you desire, no matter how pure of a desire it may be. This dunya is a trial in which all your desires are lined up and knocked over, one by one until you despair from Allah(swt) Mercy, or raise yourself above them and look towards Allah(swt) to decide your desires.
“And you cannot escape in the earth or in the heaven (from Allah). And besides Allah you have neither any Protector nor any Helper.” ( 29.22)
“So whatever you have been given is but (a passing) enjoyment for this worldly life, but that which is with Allah (Paradise) is better and more lasting for those who believe and put their trust in their Lord (concerning all of their affairs).
May Allah(swt) grant us the ability to submit to His Will completely. (42.36)
Fi AmanAllah
posted by Ayooshi at 11:12 PM
1 Comments:
i wish i was as strong as u. =(
mashaAllah.
-gotmychai
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